I xxxx you because you xxxx me; entangled for ensemble and live electronics (2021) [15']
[Instrumentation: fl, sax, perc, e guit, hrp, vln]
commissioned by kinnect kollektiv
premiered by kinnect kollektiv in Basel, Switzerland on 29. November, 2021
Program text
I xxxx you because you xxxx me; You xxxx me because I xxxx you; I don’t xxxx you because you don’t xxxx me; You don’t xxxx me because I don’t xxxx you; I am you because you are me; A xxxx B because B xxxx A; I'm small, if you think I'm small; I'm big, if you think I’m big; I'm xxxx, if you think I’m xxxx; You are xxxx, if I think you are xxxx; It is about relation and dynamic; It's not about simple logic but about desire of life.
When I die, everything is lost to me. So I want to be with more desire, even though I know it's all gone when I die. I don't live with the thought of dying. I think it's someone else's story. I after dying am to me a stranger. It is about relation, that exists, but doesn’t exist. So things we can think are easy to fool. So things the earnestness can be more sincere. It is about the dynamic the relation creates.
I can not control even my shallow feelings. On the one hand, what can a very weak human being, bound by memories from a very young age, really control anything? How I think about you affects you is that you become me, and vice versa is of course possible. If something happens to the beings which are very far from each other at the same time for no reason, it is an event that is out of their will, whether material or spiritual, existential or non-existential. It just happens regardless of our will.
Music not music, and music without music are music in the present time. I not me and I without me am me in the present time. I am denied by this time and this space and I resist it. I xxxx you because you xxxx me. You xxxx me because I xxxx you
[Instrumentation: fl, sax, perc, e guit, hrp, vln]
commissioned by kinnect kollektiv
premiered by kinnect kollektiv in Basel, Switzerland on 29. November, 2021
Program text
I xxxx you because you xxxx me; You xxxx me because I xxxx you; I don’t xxxx you because you don’t xxxx me; You don’t xxxx me because I don’t xxxx you; I am you because you are me; A xxxx B because B xxxx A; I'm small, if you think I'm small; I'm big, if you think I’m big; I'm xxxx, if you think I’m xxxx; You are xxxx, if I think you are xxxx; It is about relation and dynamic; It's not about simple logic but about desire of life.
When I die, everything is lost to me. So I want to be with more desire, even though I know it's all gone when I die. I don't live with the thought of dying. I think it's someone else's story. I after dying am to me a stranger. It is about relation, that exists, but doesn’t exist. So things we can think are easy to fool. So things the earnestness can be more sincere. It is about the dynamic the relation creates.
I can not control even my shallow feelings. On the one hand, what can a very weak human being, bound by memories from a very young age, really control anything? How I think about you affects you is that you become me, and vice versa is of course possible. If something happens to the beings which are very far from each other at the same time for no reason, it is an event that is out of their will, whether material or spiritual, existential or non-existential. It just happens regardless of our will.
Music not music, and music without music are music in the present time. I not me and I without me am me in the present time. I am denied by this time and this space and I resist it. I xxxx you because you xxxx me. You xxxx me because I xxxx you